How To Cope with Sudden Bouts of Homicidal Ideation

I think most sane, normal women would respond to the dishonorable and disgusting actions of once revered loved one with jealousy, shock, and sadness. That would be a completely understandable response.

But I’m no ordinary woman. I respond with unbridled rage. I become genuinely nauseous. I have sudden onset panic attacks like epileptic seizures. I feel, at least momentarily, like caving in a skull with my bare bloody fists.

(TMI. Deliberate.)

On a more positive note, I don’t own any weapons, my car really needs an oil change tomorrow, and I am due for a good four mile run, so alas. Life moves on, and the anger subsides for a time. It becomes, like so many things, just a very lovely and terrible thought to fuel another very sleepless night.


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"There is all this untouched beauty, the light, the dark, both running through me." -Over The Rhine
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